My own little mecca.

Selamat Hari Raya!!

2011-08-30T02:15:00.003+08:00

i have 2 things to tell today.

1. The month of Ramadhan is done and Syawal came so it is time for all those joyous food galore that i've missed for the past 2 years. anyway, i've posted my Raya message here at http://www.weareusedtape.com so do check it out.

2. When i was taking out my money from the bank this afternoon, a Singh came up to me and just approached and said "you're gonna be a lucky and happy man." suddenly out of the blue came this man. at first i actually thought he was a salesman or any kind of the illegal shit that's been going around but instead, he just said, "you'll be happy next year and have a lot of money. i can see it in your face that you'll be happy, but now you're not". i stopped. shocked. suprised. he did caught me there, so after all those words he then tells me he's a holy man who studies hororscopes. he asked me to sit down with him and let him tell me my future. i reluctantly did.

He made me promise not to tell anyone what he told me, but i do have to mentioned this.

He writes all my future on this piece of paper where i wrote down my name. He then wrote somethin in the other paper and put this paper into my palm and closed my hand. He then said something about my future and after 5 minutes, he then asked me " whats your favourite color?". i told him blue. He then wrote down this numbers 1 2 3 4 5 and asked me to pick this numbers. i chose 3.

he then told me something about the blue colour that unfortunately i didnt remember what it was and the number 3 is my children that ill have.

then he asked me to open the piece of paper that i was holding. i opened it and it wrote " BLUE, LOVE - 3 "

im not sure if he had psychic powers or anythin, but after that, whatever he told me, i believed him. i HOPE what he tells me is true.

as much as all this remains a hocus pocus and that i had to pay him money, and quite a lot (i kinda thought it was a bit of a scam) but i pray to God that whatever he told me was true and i do want the things he mentioned.

maybe that's what we all need, a fortune teller.

gnight and have a good raya!

note

2011-07-02T13:34:00.001+08:00

i do not regret for what's in the past for the past made me who i am now.

500 days of summer

2011-06-27T13:05:00.002+08:00

coincidence or meant to be?

Video Blog 02

2011-06-17T17:59:00.000+08:00

Video Blog 2 from latifrizal baharein on Vimeo.

whenever i feel unhappy...

2011-06-09T12:40:00.001+08:00

....i watch your video messages.

The truth.

2011-06-04T13:52:00.009+08:00

people might think that i'm ok,...when i'm actually not.

the truth is, depress is an understatement. always keeping my sanity in check. only words of "keep your heart close to the ground" from the song soldier on, pulls me back into reality. i understand, life is hard and you just have to suck it in, but let me tell u in a little secret about me.

1. I have an impossible mother who always talk bad about you every single fukin time. Its miserable. To even try to make her understand what she had done, is just pointless. i've already come to terms accepting that she is just going to be that way. i'm not just exaggerating when i say, it's fuct up with some of the things she say. now i know why i get too defensive.

2. Going through this break up. It's gut wrenching just enduring another break up. I've been good, i've been loyal, i've cared. It hurts coz we were HAPPY. I saw her sleep every morning after work. I make the bed after we sleep in it. I kiss her forehead every morning. fuck me. fuck ME!

I cant accept the fact that after all the torrid things after the break up that she did, i still love her and i miss her so fukin much. Missing her was the only thing i did. After wanting to be reunited after 3 months apart, IT's UNFAIR, and where the fuck is the justice of all the GOOD? Seeing you huggin someone that night after u told me u have ur boundaries, is still a picture in my innocent head.

The 2 most important people in my life, just couldnt care less and if im gone, i dont think they'd even care. somehow it seems that, theres a missing dagger in my heart stabbing me slowly. I'm falling into pieces, and here i am, alone in my room, saying this all to u, that i was happy once! and that was when im with her.

If only God listens,
i'd only wish for one.

...that all of this is a nightmare and i'd wake up with u beside me. i'd make it up, i'll still give u morning kisses, hugga u every night, keep u warm, hold u tight. i'd make it so clear to u, that ur the only person in my life, the only love i want to have and make u feel ur the most important person in the world.

GOD, Please just take me away, for this is how i feel. I'm down, depressed, and i tried to be happy, but no. The word "things happen for a reason" is like a vaguely interpretation of "im saying this just to make u feel better".

honestly, i really just want to pack, leave, somewhere no one knows where i'd be. but i have my obligations to my partners, and my promise to make it happen. I just wished someone would notice, and talk to me about my problems, cause i know, i'd just breakdown and cry.

n.

exhale

2011-06-03T19:40:00.000+08:00

there's a very thin line between sanity and insanity.

time shall pass.

2011-06-03T13:56:00.002+08:00

lettin go.

gbye my dear. i dont know why this is happening to us. i dont want to keep chasing pavements, fly around in circles.

i love u. be strong latif.

gbye.

Video Blog 01

2011-05-31T15:29:00.002+08:00

31-05-2011 from latifrizal baharein on Vimeo.

guilty

2011-05-27T18:21:00.000+08:00

and that hurt even more.

Believe.

2011-05-22T20:49:00.002+08:00

"Nobody Can Remove Hurt Except Allah. Even if someone tries to cause you any hurt, stay firm in your belief and remember that no one can cause you any pain if Allah does not desire it for you. “And if Allah touches you with hurt, there is none who can remove it but He; and if He intends any good for you, there is none who can keep back His support; He brings it to whom He pleases of His servants; And He is the Oft-Forgiving, Most Merciful." - Surah Yunus; 10:107

silence.

2011-05-10T15:50:00.005+08:00

repent.

cancer

2011-05-06T20:31:00.001+08:00

too many heartbreaks in a lifetime is just not possible for someone to take.

i just dont have the will to live anymore.

and that hurt a lil bit.

2011-04-26T13:05:00.000+08:00

i had to do it

2011-04-15T20:30:00.003+08:00

i know it wasnt the ideal time, or place. i understood the consequences of jumping to that conclusion. i understand what if it didntt go my way.

im sorry. i have no excuse. i wasnt calm enough. maybe if it wasnt sudden, itd be different. but i didnt regret. i love u. it was hard to take. i hope u understand this.

feel free to love and never hold back. a key to happiness.

"boarding EK409 to Kuala Lumpur."

2011-04-14T08:13:00.006+08:00

It's funny when you like someone else, ended up being with the person you speak most too about the girl you like.

i never knew what i intend to become or who i'll end up being with but in the year 2010, i end up with someone who i thought was just another friend. i never knew i'd end up with her but soon found out that LOVE builds around LOVE. At this point you think 'This is it!". I never want 2010 to end.

i've learned to love her. she is a special person that i ended up knowing. she suprises me with her character and her blazing attitude.

i havent been appreciative of her much.

if i had a time machine, i would go back to yours and not others.

i want you to know that i didn't put you in the slightest area above the girl or any other person.

You were Top of the list.

i miss you.

Love overcomes Hate and i'd like to spread Love rather then hate coz i have non.

nota.

2011-04-13T21:08:00.001+08:00

When you hurt someone, it becomes permanent.

Vicks

2011-04-05T23:39:00.002+08:00

Vicks is a topical ointment that gives a minty like soothing feel for your nose or chest.

I hate to say this now, but i miss you rubbing vicks and uruting my dahi.

i'm such a loser.

To whom it may concern...

2011-04-03T22:50:00.002+08:00

Dear God,

i believe that you have a path for me,

i believe everything you did was for the best for me,

all this challenges that came to me,

all the family ordeals,

all the people you made to love me,

the high and lows,

is for the better of me, God.

Dear God,

Please give back the happiness that you've taken from me,

i deserve to be happy God,

i deserve to be happy.

Dear God,

Please give Sarah Zehan her righteous path,

As much as you've taken her away from me,

i pray to You that You bless her with happiness,

Show her Your light,

the best person at heart,

a true beauty within her outer beauty,

Please leave her my doa,

and give her the happiness,

the happiness she deserves.

Dear God,

Please show my family their true colors,

Please give them comfort,

Please unite us,

Please show us to the correct path,

We have succumbed through to many balasan,

and Please show us the true power,

and give us peace,

You're the Almighty Allah,

and i seek for forgiveness.

drafts

2011-04-03T22:33:00.003+08:00

Its weird that some of my drafts aren't being published. i don't know what was i thinking not publishing them. some of them go way back to 2008.

Overanalyzing my brain is a normal commodity nowadays for me. i tend to over think stuff and in the end come down to no outcome.

life should be simple. sea breeze, sea coconuts, rojak buah by the seaside, and lots of seafood.

have u ever realize that the world has become a complicated place to live in? Theres so much havoc and mediocrity, which i'm not giving a damn with. Too much complication that you cant even lead a simple life of sea coconuts and sea breeze. Maybe i'm in the wrong place. i should have been born in Greece.

peace.

2011-04-03T22:04:00.003+08:00

5 simple rules of happiness:

1. Free your heart of hatred

2. Free your mind from worries

3. Live simply

4. Give more

5. Expect less.

Welcome back to me. it has been awhile.

overdue

2010-10-09T14:39:00.002+08:00

I am doing well. As much as i know it, i'm graduating insyallah in another 2 weeks! haha. and life has been super, thanks to my 'other half'. :)

i'm still the gullible me, the explorer me, the life searching me. :)

believe

2010-09-04T11:13:00.005+08:00

A monthly dosage.

I have too many things to think about. and i'm taking baby steps, to make my way back towards being myself again. im gettin there... i know i'm not as reliable... i sometimes can be dependant... i dont know. maybe its myself. i need to get up. live my life.

life is all about searching who you are. the truth why we are here. isnt that what we're seeking in our everyday lives? the TRUTH?

on a diff note.:

What is comfort?

a hug.

warm clothes.

security.

telling someone that it's gonna be alright.

atm, i just have to ..believe.

In midst of redundant.

2010-05-12T16:27:00.003+08:00

the 'Rangutans; agree.

This may sound like a fuckin runt to my rut,..but on second thought? Hey! it actually is! Its been awhile since i vented anger, or inflict pain to anyone, but i seriously feel like punching someone. I'm angry, and suprisingly? not to myself. I'm good! its just sometimes people take you for granted and make you feel unappreciated. Thats why i'm good BY MYSELF. i need space within these people. i just cant stand it.

takpela... i think aku nak ckp dalam bahasa melayu lak pasal aku nak mencarut tahap kimak. . senang citer..aku dah tua.... umur mmg dah nak akhir 20han and aku tau aku hit 30 nanti aku nak balik msia nak party ngan member2 aku yg aku yang sejati. actually, bukan aku tak sedar pun selama nih.... AKU SAJA JE BUAT BODOH, BUAT MUKA SELENGE TAK TAU APA2.... but Ni skarang ni aku nak citer skit pasal budak2 puki mentah ingat nak berlagak mcm hero hindustan. Byk ada kat sekitar melgampang ni. Selama ni mmg aku rilek komplek. Pasal aku tau apa semua korang buat...been there done that bro.. tapi tak kesah pun.. bagi la korang buat, parti liar.. tapi yg PALING aku pantang korang budak2 kimak ni, nak amek kesempatan aku diam2 tak bersuara ko ingat ko boleh bersuaralak ngan aku mcm aku budak kecik! Jap...have a break, have a kit kat, aku tau la muka aku hensem skang mcm budak kecik, but for fukin ay mate, that aint gonna give ya the rights to SAY OR RAISE YOUR VOICE TO ME! Malas lak aku nak berlapek... senang citer, aku taknak tgk muka kau and baik ko blah...sebelum aku sepak muka kau hantar ko balik msia....

yes.. this is how i feel right now. i dont care bapak ko menteri ke, sultan ke... sometimes this kids needs to learn some respect. aku pedulik apa bapak ko ada duit 50 juta, ko tunggu nanti ko dah keje hidup susah,ko carik duit sendiri..baru ko sedar susah senang hidup...tapi SUSAH LAK aku nak ckp..guna tolong mak bapak tak guna gak.....

A care to respect on others is a non-selfish deed towards other beings, make it an animal or the trees.

Ayat ayat diatas dituju khas kepada budak2 yg terasa..... sapa yg makan cili, dia yg terasa pedas.

Sekian.

i tweet.

2010-03-22T14:13:00.002+08:00

yes. i tweet. lets all tweet together! -_- https://twitter.com/ipassgas

yo momma

2009-11-26T10:30:00.002+08:00

yo momma's so fat...

when she farts, the wind's stuck on her butt cheeks!

"pretty picture"

2009-11-19T17:18:00.004+08:00

Generally,

we are all just materialistic ppl who likes pretty thangs', beautiful things on the outside....

We are so influenced by the outer "breasts" of how things in the world are nowadays...

but my question is...what bout the inside? what happen to inner beauty, the inner soul of one persons reflection? dont we all trust each other anymore? ..... is everyone full of shit that no one cares for ones man or girl?

I dont know how to explain this in a particular context, but although pretty cosmetics and beautiful features are just some of the things i look for in a girl, whats most important to me is that the inside.... the characteristics.... unique is the word. and to find someone thats just unique is hard to find.

it just turns me on...weird girls.....pretty smiles...... big eyes...... corny laughs...... i dont know... i might be cliche but i look more on the inside more rather then the outside.... i like them mysterious, the way...how they talk... i dont know... those weirdness....qwerkyness and so on... I'm not saying i dont like pretty faces and long legs, hell, i think all those things are just bonuses.

but it made me think ....

the inner side of a person is not that important anymore because everyones just a cosmetic ass that likes "pretty" in the world and live towards an infinity of fake shit.

maybe i'm emo but this is something i like to take as ones note, that i just like someone thats unique.....and honest... coz i know honesty just turns me on.

"Just So You Know"

2009-10-23T21:46:00.005+08:00

Just so you know.... we have a band called "Just So You Know". :)

Pictures were taken by Shura shunit! Thx shu....

Show was at The Precinct at Lt Lonsdale and Williams st. Melbourne.

Thanks everyone for comin down. :)

melbs.

2009-10-16T10:03:00.002+08:00

time flies like cherries on a cake...

when life is sweet,

it flies like butterflies,

in your mind and your daily lives,

like water streams through river....

life has been swell..

exceptions should be put on the weather, it's killing me slowly.... i've been having this flammish flu for quite some time... but lets not take our nice lil article for today up to ruins...

5 months have passed... and final week is just around the corner. Deadlines are everywhere in my head..but im sure its something that should be peas on a plate for me... honestly, its not. lol. i thought wrong. Uni life is a bit of an exaggerated misconcept... u learn through learning...but during that learning experience, u actually learn more learning on your daily life basis. it's something i take pleasure in... learning life as u live and not just facts.

life was facts and descriptions earlier ....

btw....theres not much difference life in the Aussie land and back home in KL....

the daily going out... your unoccasional drinkin.... "shisha'ing", .... yupe... just the same.. but it's a bit better here considering i can run naked on a field somewhere and get wasted just to piss on the neighbours. thats something i dont do everyday back in Malaysia. lol

but saying things ...... i'm starting to miss kl a bit. suprisingly.....most of them goes to family n friends.... i miss them freaking shisha at davies,..drink till u drop at ur RM5 per beer place..... the daily tomyam escapade at gerai, golfing, the imprompts in H2, .....

and with the changes i heard back home....hahahah... i think it's starting to get a bit surreal with all events thats happening. big up H2! and diki...if you're reading this...shit man... i never thought u'd get married..... ITS ABOUT BLOODY TIME! congrats mate....

till my next pen in.... cheers matey!

"to be or not to be......i chose"

2009-06-02T09:06:00.003+08:00

From a fictional character to a totally out of the norm, u can differentiate the characteristics of one person. to a certain point, life has its limits... to stop what ur doing, and do what ur supposed to do. Limitless to what we can achieve has no boundaries......

to stock up from one place to another is not an easy job, but believe me, my motive is simply exceeding my own expectations.....yes im full of suprises. i can suprise ppl with "limitless" things that i could think of....but this is something i wanted to do,... for quite some time now.

yes. ive been bitching a lot bout my own country...

yes. its been surreal but nice.

no. im not happy.

i know to some people i might be doing things because of something.....or to be accurate, of' someone'...but i can tell u, in this case, i rest my judgement to God and forever be at peace with it. theres no term, on how to describe.....but yea, i know that as long as im happy,....i can make everyone else happy.

"Death & Taxes"

2009-05-20T23:13:00.003+08:00

Heres something i came thru while searching for t-shirt materials on the net for my I PASS GAS, which btw is on course to its online debut. :) well, all i have to say is that, it's creative. hehehe.... i'd hire this girl anyday...anytime....

hey!... Sex does sell.

"Gung-Ho"

2009-05-20T01:26:00.003+08:00

I gotta admit.

I was talkin to my cousin during lunchtime, when suddenly, i questioned when i started to do things so daring, and straight forward, doing things without thinking..... i started to analyze where did i start. Ahhh... one of my colleagues. starting from this day, i started to do things more forward, without thinking...and i was doin things more bravely....i wanted to be more daring...not just wait n do stuff. I'm tired of analyzin shit,..talk about it and in the end not doing things. i now know, why i did this things. I was in a miserable state before....sad sad state....i was in a bad shape..... a very bad break up.... it was too traumatic to me that i stopped doin everything! LITERALLY! PHYSICALLY! yes.....it made me became a zombie in my own world.... this was the reason why i gung hoed everythin because one day...i've decided to stop all this! instead of rolling over n die at my own bed....ive decided to DO EVERYTHING that i wanted! BE MORE POSITIVE!....i started reading good books....for a positive thinking....did more sports...... and most of all... i was more daring towards girls....n it started with my colleague...although recently she's been nice to me...hmm i donno.

but my point is......

this Gung Ho thing that i've been doin?....it backfired....yes....it backfired bad.

i gung hoed to someone......that in the end..... end up liking.......that i really, really like.

i dont know what to say, but i know now that its too late. some stuff u learn through experiences, that change a whole perception.

u know what?

....it changed me,

to a better person...and i thank her for that.

"stolen ...."

2009-04-20T23:25:00.008+08:00

"I didnt expect it to be like how it is right now,

but if i had to take one thing back,

i would'nt have rushed things,

i was wrong,

u are worth it....

the thing is,

i didnt expect that i'd feel like this,

i only thought that i'd give it a shot,

but to some certain extend,

it became a bit weird....

although i knew i felt somethin for u before i went "across",

but i was more trying to see if u'd give in....

i was wrong....

Now,

my feelings are more stronger,

it became a bit weird missing you everyday,

thinkin u had fun, and im happy that u did,

sigh...what a moron i am, to do those stupid things,

sigh....n i thought i wouldnt feel a thing....

...how can i be so wrong...

so wrong....

i'm sorry....that i jumped the boat,

i didnt think before i did it,

i know i should've,

but babe....i didnt know a girl like u could make me be at a standstill,

u made my life go slow mo,

u make me happy, just thinkin that u smiled,

i know,

its hard to believe,

so do i,

but this is the truth,

i'm thinkin now,

i dint regret doin the things that i did,

i didnt regret tellin u the things that i feel,

coz some things shouldnt take forever to let it out,

n lastly,

i know i didnt regret seein u,

coz if not,

i'd regret a lifetime not knowing you...

if ur readin this babe...

i know ur it."

"A thought from ...."

2009-04-19T13:16:00.003+08:00

"Life passes so fast, till i found you..... Everything goes in slow motion."

"Sleepless night in H2"

2009-04-16T01:16:00.005+08:00

The gardens of daisies,

smells like the eden of eve,

mountain skies, zooms into my eyes,

not even the slightest sombre, lookin at u smile,

rose petals, red as your lips,

light the candles, and we go back takin a sip,

while u lie down on my shoulder, takin a slight breather,

i'll take ur hand, n wipe those soft hair,

took off to jupiter, n came back again...

for u.

"dreamin in my own waves."

2009-04-13T13:13:00.004+08:00

I'm seein a bright starlight,

twinkle and sparkle,...like those midnight bright,

u n me together, we would set drift afar,

get closer together,....while kissin under them shootin stars,

i take no joy, not bein myself,

sometimes i hinder, shy'ing away from my own trueself,

but u gave me light, oh my dear true star,

can i be urs tonight,...and we'll go to the stars,...

i know im a better person then this shy guy in me,

sometimes i just dont know why, it really gets to me,

but when i see u, ....i can be my own self too,

i know ur it, thats why im almost fallin for u..

im confessin my joy, my love, my dear...

and this is all i do, to get my hoots on u,

im all about love, not a cupid, but yes its all so true,

i am a hopeless guy, ...but this im sure,

i keep fallin,....

....fallin for u.

"nothin less then ordinary."

2009-03-22T16:45:00.004+08:00

I was catchin up with a friend recently...talkin about life n stuff.......

more importantly, we hit a brake note, when we came out to a topic where it hits us .....bout social life in kuala lumpur. For someone who thinks that its a bit of a drag nowadays in kl, which everywhere u go, u know the same people over n over again.....which is good...but sometimes, u just need to break from that cycle, and meet new people as life passes u on before u reach an age, where u get tired, and just be with ur wife and play golf every day....hahaha.

Nowadays, its either u go to a club and mingle....or join a social club ( photography club, film club etc.)..... I'm a type of person, who doesnt like the same thing over n over again, so i tend to break that cycle sometimes, by doing things randomly.....like going for jakarta one weekend, or even go kayaking for that matter. My point is, i like to go somewhere, that makes me guessing, whats gonna happen next,....and be spontaneous bout things....

I'm not saying i'm a guy who doesnt have his own plans........indeed i have some in my mind right now ;) ....its just that, to me now, life is all about adventuring, ...discover new things that's SO vast in this world, and its not just everything here in "tanah tumpah nye darahku". It's about how i accept the idea of exploring..... like this one time, when i was a kid, how i went out in the early mornings, and went to a jungle nearby my house (some say, theres a hut there or something)....although in the end, i found out that it was more of a secluded land, for future developements of houses......

my point is, life is a never ending fun.....filled with mysterious lanes that you can opt to choose, or not too. In the end, its up to u.

Later. :)

"Waving from the other side..and yes...i'm back."

2009-02-18T14:47:00.007+08:00

"Hey you,....yes you...
I dont know how, I dont know why,
the first time we met,
you made me smile,
I adore you,
that cuteness blurry self of you...
it made me smile...
believe it when i say,
I cant wait, I cant stop, everytime I hear your name,
My heart throbs...
I blushed & I smile,

Hey you,..yes you...
I know we just met, ...and thats ok,
Let me suprise you,
Believe it or not,..
I shy away with you,
Ive never shy away,
not with anyone,
not like you...

I cant wait babe,
seeing you smile again,
holding you...
kiss you and touching you,
let me make that dream,
the dream of me and you,
let me,...
hey you,....yes you...
let me kiss you,
let me take you away...
I'll touch that lips,
i'll kiss it ....
at last,..
it'll take you & me,
away babe...."

"Quote of meme."

2008-03-20T22:52:00.003+08:00

Its been awhile since i've put some of my thoughts in the virtua. Most of it people wont give a flying fuk....but who cares if i say, Life is a bitch... or Life is Good!

I'm here to talk about love.

What is love?
is it something precious to you? Or is it Marriage? Is it a bond between 2 souls? or is it a relationship? Is it something your feelings play around with? or is love something that has got to do with trees? Is it something that you care about? or is it something that you dont give a flying f^ck about? Is it sadness? Is it pain? Is it something that you think it might last long? or is it just gonna take a short while? :) Is it something unimaginable? is it visible or invinsible? Is love something that you can create? or isit something that God creates for you? Is it something imaculate? or is it heartbreaking? Is love Life? or is it death?

I've been sleeping for almost 3 hours every day trying to cure my sleepless nights to think, what LOVE is to me.... for some, i might have told to, that i might have fallen sick and nearly throwing up hokkien mee, but still ....WHO CARES?

My life is a tragedy....to all the authors and publishers out there, take me as your story, and i can guarentee it might not be a flop.

I have a love story who for some who may know, i have fallen for since my high school days. I love her so much and i've never stopped loving her. I think most of the people who knows me, they might know who she is. but all i ever did was dissapoint her. How can i correct this?
Everytime i see her or i have the oppurtunity to talk to her, I need to be at my most perfect behaviour.......my tone, my feelings, my thoughts, i have to keep it to myself. Just because i've done mistakes , it doesnt mean i have to become inhuman?

I sometimes wish that I could make every mistake in the world so i could learn what's wrong n whats right...but not many people get the chance to do so.

She also have hurt me in so many ways..... but do i forgive her? Yes.

I'm not a nice guy either.....but im trying to be the nicest of them lot for her. but sometimes, I myself need to learn and tell myself that " dont you think that, that's enough already?"

Eventually, my choice making decisions were not that good....and i chose to fight...but sometimes, fighting what you feel.... is funny enough, not the best option...hence no fairytale ending.

Do i wish for a fairytale? no. but you know, I was ready before to be a family man...and right now i'm already at that stage to be a family man. Im not stubborn to not go back and be a bachelor man and go to clubs and pick up chicks. no...heck i'm no george clooney.

but one thing i do know now is that, Fighting for something u believe in is no longer true. You've gone to the END to fight for something you believe in, but just maybe..... what i believe in now is something not worth believing...

who cares what i believe in... the one person who i love the most dont care anymore what i think and believe or should i say, if im alive.

Abaharein is my family name to some who might not know.

I'll probably stop blogging for now. This is probably gonna be my last post.

Goodbye.

My rants of sadness.

2008-02-18T00:48:00.007+08:00

To my dearest....

Looking at our photos together,

Running tear drops, weeping to my shoulder,

Ever so beautiful, ever so funny,

As though an Angel

Shining vividly towards me,

Didnt realize how happy we were,

Together...

It keeps me smilling, tears of joy,

knowing u, always had loved me.

to my dearest,

You're looking for something,

Something you're searching for,

Something that speaks the truth,

Maybe you overlook things,

Maybe the answers were always,

and has been right infront of you my dear...

Maybe it is..Maybe it will be

to my dearest,

My pain is not important anymore,

I was blinded, deaf to my ears,

Didnt see what u were to me all this years,

Someone who gave me life,

a power to live,

were always and will be you..

my dearest....

to my dearest,

listen to me please,

listen carefully,

to my pain and sadness,

I'm so weak,

so sick to my knees,

Living is not something im looking forward to,

not without u,

not without u my baby.

I will always be,

to you my dearest,

one that shall be,

forever yours,

forever true,

forever my love will be.

Lan3.

ku sakit perut.

2008-01-21T13:10:00.001+08:00

it feels so good to write things when ur free of everything....work, problems,... sitting here at 1pm on a stressfull monday just makes my day.

seriously, im just having this weird sakit perut shit....since saturday my perut is like sakit tak sakit...sakit tak sakit kinda thing. but it made me want to write bout something ....

rindu untuk seorang buat ku pening,
rindu untuk kenang kenangan,
rindu untuk keriangan,
rindu untuk sekarang,
rindu ni tak pelik, ia datang,
sampai sekarang,
ku pening, ia datang,
ku sangsi, ia datang,
ku penat, tiada siapa buat mu seorang,
apa ertinya ini?
penat ku bilang,
penat ku katakan,
setiap hari, setiap malam,
hanya dia yg ku ingat, ....hanya seorang.

the walk..

2007-11-28T19:19:00.000+08:00

After walking back home from work...which is far from freakin kg attap to my apartment.....i know one thing thats going through my mind.... I'm depressed and disheartened....... i told myself " i needed a walk", and so i did.

Crazy, but true. I'm in disarray in this freakin workplace...i cant think nor work...my creative mojo isnt coming to me...i need my muse....muse oh! muse. where are you?

when i arrived at the dayabumi junction, i heard the Azan Isya'....i felt a bit relieved and told myself "lets go". So i went in...with my torn jeans. I know the rules....tak sah to pray if tak tutup my legs...but its more like intuative of my instincts to go n pray...and so i did.

I was searching and searching, for the things that i've really lost inside me,........im sad...im depressed...and its totally gone in what i seek for.

i believed ...

but now, i dont know what else to think ....

i just feel like laughing.

2007-11-27T12:44:00.000+08:00

hahahaha..

10.11.07

2007-11-18T13:44:00.000+08:00

When i thought life would be any happier, the events that friday night was an eye opener. Khahlil invited us for a friday night out. Although i was a bit tired from work, i guess whats left for the weekend if u dont spend it "wisely". Khahlil was to pick me up because im tired of bringin the car, but then said he'll send me back later since he's already on the way to heritage and lets just meet there. So i called rahizal and we both headed there with ease. It was a fun night, met with new ppl and old ones. Drinks was on the table and everybody was having a good time.

After 4 oclock, I was waiting for khahlil to send me back home, but he was having some "shitty" moments. I waited for an hour and he's still at it. They say "when the day grows brighter, its time for u to take a shower n sleep". So after waiting for him , i asked rahizal to send me home. We decided to go makan since everyone was hungry.

While eating, we received an sms saying "khahlil had an accident bro," and i was completely, blanked out. We called friends and asked what happen but most of them were a bit HIGH to understand whats going on, but mentioned that we're at the Universiti hospital. We head there straight after that.

We arrived and straight away asked what happen n all. Khahlil had minor bruises on his face and was complaining of chest pains.......

There was a passenger. He was half concious and cant even say anything. The passengers lip was cut into 2 and his teeth was left with the bottom ones. The head was wounded, and his body was weak as hell.

So who would've know that when a person is gone, it would take more then anything to comprehend, what u've been through. i for one say, life is short.

I am an artist at living - my work of art is my life.

if i was to wait for khahlil that day,.......

puisi isiup.

2007-10-23T12:38:00.001+08:00

I'm gonna blog in bahasa since its a beautiful language.

"setiap pagi, setiap petang, aku memikirkan,
apa yg telah aku impikan,
setiap hari , setiap bulan,
berkali kali ku lari, ia datang,
ya, memang aku "a hopeless romantic",
memang aku sayang,
tapi kerana hidup ini, berpusing pusingan,
ku lari, ku blah dari alam mainan,

tak perlu ku dipermainkan,
tak perlu ku diusik, disindirkan,

itulah aku,
sifatku yg pendiam,
ku akan diam,
dan diam,
diam,
buat selama-lamanya,
sampai hidup ku henti,

....henti dibunuh kesedihan...

inilah kata-kata kesatku."

"Theres no more for me."

2007-09-12T16:32:00.000+08:00

Sigh...

Could you please remove that blanket off your back?

It’s keeping me away from you

Sigh…

Every time I move closer to you

The blanket around is shielding you from me

Sigh…

I want to help you

I am here for you

But why do you feel that I never get it right?

Every time I want to tell you something

You just brushed it away and interpret it your own

Sigh…

Is it so hard to really express?

Is it so hard to look into the problem and seek an answer without trying to ‘runaway’?

I see your pain and I think I have a solution

Why won’t you let me finish?

Why do you keep decipher it erroneously?

My heart feels as though it is going to burst

Listening to how you think I wanted to say

It breaks me literally

Coz’ all I wanted was to just comfort you

Sigh…

Let me help to comfort you

Shield from being hurt

But I won’t be around a lot

I need you to be stronger for you

Tomorrow will not get any easier if today is left this way

Sigh..

Get up luv

I am here

We go through this together

‘Coz life is too complicated to go through it alone

Learn to see the intentions of others

Don’t misjudge by their voice or manner

Maybe their heart is pure and sincere

Sigh…

Get up luv

Let’s not sulk at the present

Act on improving the future

Maybe the first step is

Remove the blanket that’s clouding your mind

Remove the emotional blanket of your back

So you can see the purest intentions of other

And the good things in life

God would never created a rough path for you

If he knew you couldn’t take it

Be strong

And surprise us with your true self

Get some rest luv…

Clear your mind…

And be at peace..

I’m going to be here

Trying to remove the blanket of your back

Sigh….

Surpass David thy Master.

2007-08-27T15:13:00.000+08:00

david had what david has.

" La carne terra, e qui l'ossa mia, prive

de' lor begli occhi, e del leggiadro aspetto

fan fede a quel ch'i' fu grazia nel letto,

che abbracciava, e' n che l'anima vive. "

heaven and back.

2007-07-25T10:43:00.000+08:00

fate.

its probably it. sometimes when u try hard enough and fail? its just better to leave it that way. its probably things that God wants u to be, u know....things like when its not going your way, God has an explanation for it...maybe to better things....better your own life......your own purpose to live. so yea....its all good. :)

"BREAKING NEWS!"

2007-07-23T12:05:00.000+08:00

im sure u remember this... :)

I've decided.

after a long 2 years, and thinking hard..... "Drive-Thru 2" is in progress.
and for the people who's expecting a continuation of the first one, i'm sorry to say that its not gonna be, although maybe same characters might appear, u never know. Its a diff story altogether.....funnier, sadness, happy and anguish... all put into one good short one. So boys & girls, ladies & gentlemen, ....lets keep the camera rolling once more! cheers.

breakdown.

2007-07-11T21:26:00.000+08:00

I Dont Wanna Believe That Its Over

You Might See Me Smilin
But Inside Im Dying
Too Proud To Let It Show
I Aint The One
You Wont See Me Crying
But Its Hard To Let It Go
All My Time On The Tour Bus
Wasnt Good For Us
And Then You Throw It All
Started Gettin Around With A Few Choice Chicks
But We Had Something Special
Plus The Sex Was Sick

Do You Remember
From The Bed
To The Wall
On The Floor
By The Fireplace
I Know You Remember
On The Truck
Couldnt Wait
So We Got Off On The Garden State
Somehow We Must Of Got All Turned Around On Last Freeway
Now I Cant Find My Way Home To You

Oh Girl

Still
I Get Love In The Hood
Still
Acting Like My Life Is All Good
Still
Putting Up A False Bravado
When I Lost You I Lost My Winning Ticket To Lotto
Still
Everytime I Raise My Glass
I Try To Drink Away My Past
To The World I Might Appear To Be The Life Of The Party
But They Dont See Me

I Never Thought Id Be The One Missing
Oh, I Cant Take This Emptyness
And I Cant Keep Going On Like This
And I Cant Keep Pretending
That This Dont Hurt Like A Mother Babe
I Know That Its Crazy For Me To Come Over
I Had To See You
I Know I Gotta To Change Girl
Ill Do That Quick
You Need To Take Me Back Cause The Sex Was Sick

Remember When We Used To Ride The Bus
Girl How We Came Up
Fine Korean Chicks And All That
Id Give It Up Just To Have You Back
Cause Moneys Only Paper Girl
And This House Dont Feel Like Home When Im Alone
Whenever You See Me
Baby Remember

Yall Dont See
You Only See What You See On The Tv
This Is My Reality
Girl Youll Get To Know Me

taken from Joe - Life of a party.

think about it.

2007-07-11T18:15:00.000+08:00

Do you think that what you're doing now is worth justifying my actions and is worth to ignore everything after i'm gone?

Theres a thing called the 'daceng'

2007-07-10T12:38:00.000+08:00

Fairness. i dont think you get it when i said you're being fair.

being fair is not what u expect someone to give it to u, but hope to let it be given to u.

Fair-ness These adjectives mean free from favoritism, self-interest, or preference in judgment. Fair is the most general: a fair referee; a fair deal. Just stresses conformity with what is legally or ethically right or proper: "a just and lasting peace" (Abraham Lincoln). Equitable implies justice dictated by reason, conscience, and a natural sense of what is fair: an equitable distribution of gifts among the children. Impartial emphasizes lack of favoritism: "the cold neutrality of an impartial judge" (Edmund Burke). Unprejudiced means without preconceived opinions or judgments: an unprejudiced evaluation of the proposal. Unbiased implies absence of a preference or partiality: gave an unbiased account of her family problems. Objective implies detachment that permits impersonal observation and judgment: an objective jury. Dispassionate means free from or unaffected by strong emotions: a dispassionate reporter.

Pain is an unpleasant sensation; nociception or nociperception is a measurable physiological event of a type usually associated with pain and suffering. The word "pain" comes from the Latin: poena meaning punishment, a fine, a penalty. A sensation of pain can exist in the absence of nociception: it can occur in response to both external perceived events (for example, seeing something) or internal cognitive events (for example, the phantom limb pain of an amputee). Pain is defined as “an unpleasant sensory and emotional experience associated with actual or potential tissue damage, or described in terms of such damage” - International Association for the Study of Pain (IASP). Scientifically, pain (a subjective experience) is separate and distinct from nociception, the system which carries information, about inflammation, damage or near-damage in tissue, to the spinal cord and brain. Nociception frequently occurs without pain being felt and is below the level of consciousness. Despite it triggering pain and suffering, nociception is a critical component of the body's defense system. It is part of a rapid warning relay instructing the central nervous system to initiate motor neurons in order to minimize detected physical harm. Pain too is part of the body's defense system; it triggers mental problem solving strategies that seek to end the painful experience, and it promotes learning, making repetition of the painful situation less likely.

"You have failed me yet again Starscream!!"

2007-06-30T13:28:00.000+08:00

"Pah. Can i switch the channel to transformers?"

When you were growing up, you tend to watch tv's a lot, play the atari, play konda-kondi.....and in the generation of the 70's to the 90's....i'm sure we are all fans of TRANSFORMERS!! i gotta admit my childhood was a bit whack. I had to teman my grandmother always infront of the tv watching Kuali, Wok with Yan, Masak berama Agnes, ...right after Oshin, her most watch shown while I had to wait to watch teenage mutant ninja turtles or transformers on tv1...sigh....

Oh well...

Transformers brought me back to that childhood flashback, and boy my goodness, it was the coolest feeling. Watching Prime in a real life movie was not to be expected in our yester years! Come on, who wouldve imagine a REAL Transformers movie? But they did it. Michael Bay and Spielberg brought them to life. Watching bumblebee, Ironhide, Ratchet turned into a GMC Sponsored Cars was not to complain about, since it was cutting the production costs, but bumblebee did made a cameo on the scene when Bernie Mac tried to sell the old Volkswagen. hehe. The Autobots rock but....

I gotta say that my heart lies to the Decepticons. Why? Lets just say, i had fond memories of Drawing a lot of them when i was young, not to mention my old brothers affection to the dark side! Although Megatron was not as that boxy type gun robot that we expected, I would give the remake a 11/10. Somehow i could see megatron inside. ONE THING though, the original voice should've been kept! I mean, Come on! Starscreams shreaking voice and Megatrons husky annoying voice? Whats not to love about a villian? And dont tell me Soundwaves would be changed too?? That robo linear voice? ..Soundwaves appearence in the coming sequel better be good. Brotherly love involved here. + I always thought Soundwave was the coolest ever character in the transformers. Whats not to like in a boombox? hehe.
Ravage, Laserbeak, Buzzsaw, Ratbat, Rumble.....oh boy...rumble... and frenzy. Man! Frenzy's not a frenzy without rumble!

Anyways, kudos to those Hollywood guys for making us Man or Woman turnback to our 'child' self. It was an experience of a lifetime...for all of us. Peace.

Oh yea, ill give the movie a 15 out of 5. priceless. 5 for the effort, 10 for the memories. :)

OGA2007

2007-06-19T05:01:00.000+08:00

Corporate Profile Tanjung07

Nicely displayed of Corporate sets from Tanjung.

Recently, there was an Oil & Gas Annual summit which was held in KL Convention Centre. I was there to witness my work for TANJUNG OFFSHORE BERHAD and see how's the reaction towards the printed material. From what i've heard, its quite good.

I have to thank TANJUNG, Yayas & Co, Along for the printing and if i might say, a job well deserved. Hopefully there's more to come. Hehe. Salam.

Again

2007-06-16T21:50:00.000+08:00

Blogging aint easy. It takes self bravery and confidence to write what you want to and for whatever reason, its a theraphy, to me...

how i'm feeling right now? i'm gonna put it this way....
A) Part of my self is asking me to stay and move forward, take risks, look up for new stuffs to do, go get that interview, move out, get your own space and take 1 day at a time, earn monthly income, get that house, and live like the normal man that everyones doing. It'll probably help me to get my mind straight and ignore everything that comes to me, but ......to tell you the truth, i can't. It's not that i can't do all this things, i can, but being here just makes me feel like i shouldn't be here. although i could put up a straight face to everyone and smile, saying things like "i'm ok" or "life is good" are such lies. i could live like that with me being in denial and live in this so called hell hole that i'm in now, with no support of anykind from anyone (inc. family) , i would just be better taking a nap in a curb somewhere and roll over and die. Yesterday, a junior came up to me and said, "ur mom complaints to my mom about u man and said ur getting married", oh wow.... thats something new. And the best part was, I met with a past friend (it's only been like years) and just by looking at her, my whole flashback came back like a bullet train bypassing my chained chest of bad memories. Dont get me wrong, she was the person i use to talk stuff with when we hang out with the group of friends but looking at the past, was not a joyful thing. U're a great friend dear. Life couldnt be better.

B) I'm thinking of going somewhere that no one knows and just leave everything. This option is something that keeps rotating in my mind like the eye of malaysia. i know It could change my life totally. I could do it, i can take the leap. Maybe work abroad, take some experience somewhere out from here and...never come back. I could stay in KL and live like a normal Malaysian but i just want to live everything, pack my bags, no contact no whatever, just my cash, my stuff, not even my trusted laptop, just leave. Maybe Austria, or Australia? who knows. i could just probably end up in pengkalan chepa and people wouldnt still notice me leave.

Yesterday was a good day. it reminded me of the past, the present and the future (oh oh!). You cant plan your future. i did, it didnt work. Planning something ahead of u is just something that fairytales been told to young kids. God plans your ground work, your life mapping, the road you're gonna take. Maybe i should just take the risk, of doing everything spontaneous and do whatever that come crosses my mind?

One thing that i want to confess right now is that if that thing happens, again, and i know that this time if it really do happen(by seeing signs, it's bound to) , I would be ok, coz why? coz its ur decision....you decided whats best for you and u decided that this is what you wanted, for i am nobody.

then again, lets see if Latif could do it this time....and yet, again, it continues.....

MA-LI-BU

2007-06-10T23:44:00.000+08:00

TRANQUILITY & NON-STOP GETTIN JIGGY WITH IT! ...boracay. it was heavenly. Getting my self straight from stupidity, i got my self back up to this island to a voyage of my sovereignity and peace. It was..shall i say a "mind-blowing" experience. Summer break was out..so u can get the picture.

hmm

2007-05-26T13:05:00.000+08:00

peace.

Babel over me.

2007-05-04T18:54:00.000+08:00

Yes. Its true. I only have eyes for this lady.

As i go along with my daily routine, of cleaning my teeth and shaving my balls, i miss my baby more then ever. a lot of bloody times i stressed out migraining myself (trust me, it hurts), while doing my 2 pending jobs and not to mention my FINAL presentation on friday. man i love to graduate.

when the things that u wanted to do happen to be a big mishap, u cant stop but think why on earth do u do this kind of things? for starters, why would u want to be the person who acts angry at the birthday girl and when the day comes tralalalalala, you save the day by 'pujuking' her? when you're being the person who've been told that "you never pujuk me. i'm the only one who always pujuk", thats when the idea came along. It never meant to happen the way it did, stressing her out and everything but sometimes an idea can just be "a wasted effort".

Love is a funny thing my friends and foes. It buggles you when you're happy and it confuses you when you're sad. Its a Gods play thing on human emotions, a subordinate trance of pain and anguish, but at the same time giving you pure pleasure and happiness. LOVE = Living on various emotions? maybe.

after listening to Akon (dont matter), i cant stop to wonder what have i done to deserve all this wonderful mischief? maybe its punishing time....maybe its just people who's full of boosted confidence makes her stronger, maybe its just me who takes things toooo fu@#$% seriously,....yes seriously, isnt that an odd thing for latif b?

Coming to terms with the family is'nt just a play thing to me. It's serious. It's a relationship that i want to have and have respect for. right now, i'm being branded as a bad 'delinquent', a ludacris, and a tormenting disease to the daughter i sorely miss. It's already been 10 years, and I cant still come to terms with the family. Maybe its me, but dont say that i havent tried.

this unfortunate mishaps reminds me of 'Babel', when the scene of the mexican maid where "Good intentions turn ugly, in just an act of untruth". She didnt have anyone to help take care for her bosses childrens to go to her son's wedding across the border. Instead, she took both the children & when they head back, she told the curious policeman that they were her nephews. Noticing how the suspicious policeman was, her drunk nephew drove off in a hot chase pursuit and left the maid and the children in the middle of the dessert to save her ass.

Maybe this are all just excuses for me to be judge upon all my actions in the past and all my UNFORTUNATE fukin mishaps that came across in my whole fukin life. Why i'm writing this is not because i want salvation nor forgiveness no. Its just that.... when life turn its back against u, u should be thankful....coz thats when you learn everything from it, twice.

I'm sure she would'nt have time to be reading this, but if you are,
Sayang...Happy Happy Birthday....

"Beachy" ...

2007-04-19T22:07:00.000+08:00

bubbly.

Adam: I have a confession.

Priest: Go ahead. Tell me about it.

Adam: I’ve committed sin. I’m going back to my obsession. The obsession that I used to have when I was a child.

Priest: Go on.

Adam: Do u know when you are addicted to something and you can’t get enough out of it? Well, that’s my problem. I’m disgusted with myself.

Priest: My child, sometimes when you go through in life you will come to certain challenges, certain obstacles that might challenge you harshly.

Adam: I understand, but this is more serious then it used to be. I could control it before, but now? It’s more addictive, blinding my ever clear path to never ending happiness. I need more of it now!

Priest: Patience my child. Try looking to God. God is always there. You won’t be here if it wasn’t for Him.

Adam: I understand father. But the lord has give me this gift, this gift of virtue that’s so sacred. It’s much more powerful then I thought it would. But I’ve used it wrongly. So wrong that I’m again disgusted with myself.

Priest: What gift is this that you’ve spoken so fondly, my child?

Adam: I,….I have the ability to smell from afar father.

Priest: From afar?

Adam: Yes, the super sense of smell. Smelling like the dogs looking for food, smelling sweet cherry pie 10km away.

Priest: Ahh.

Adam: It’s a gift that I’m truly blessed with. But, I’m disgusted with my obsession father.

Priest: What is this obsession you are talking about my child?

Adam: I…I like ….I like to smell lady underpants.

Priest: ……

Adam: Yes father. I KNOW I KNOW THAT IM WRONG! FORGIVE ME FATHER! FORGIVE ME!

(silence)

Priest: My son.

Adam: Yes father.

Priest: I have a confession.

Adam: ??

Priest: I too like to smell lady underpants.

(and there was silence)

Priest: son?

Nuns: U DIRTY OLD MAGGOT!!

Priest: ???

Suddenly the booth was surrounded with nuns.

Nuns: NO WONDER WE ARE MISSING SOME UNDERPANTS!

The nuns chased the father away with their broomsticks while the father flees away.

A Confession.

2007-04-09T01:42:00.000+08:00

Aesthetic.

I have a confession dear Lord. A confession that only I know and only me. I have recreate an obsession. The obsession that was once a has been. Lets see how far this obsession will be....

Keropok lekor, here I come!

2007-04-06T14:57:00.000+08:00

click on the image to enlarge.

When your head is heavy and blank, your eyes gets sore, and have put so much effort and still fuk up? You really need help. Not often i ask people to comment bout thy work but I need help on my letterhead, envelope and business card for my Darbypark rebranding. PLEASE comment! since i'm already in that zone where my head is in blank. Had a discussion earlier for my 3 previous sets which obviously have been dissed.

So this is the new one that i have come up with, using white textured paper, 2 colour ( violet & black ) and the floral shapes ( which i've made it look more organic then before ).

thank you. kritikan anda sangat dialu alukan.

Schools killing creativity?

2007-04-06T01:37:00.000+08:00

There's this story about a 6 years old boy who always draw behind the classroom but in drawing lessons, he pays attention. The teacher was fascinated and came to the little boy and ask him, "What are you drawing?". The little boy replied, "I'm drawing a picture of God". The teacher then reacted," but nobody knows how God looks like", and the little boy simply said "soon they will be".

Sigh Ranjit....

2007-04-03T02:46:00.000+08:00

Ranjit the clerk came into the boardroom when suddenly he stumbles upon his boss.

Mr. Boss - "Ranjit. Do you know where my pen is?"

Ranjit - " Yes sir! Its down there!"

Mr.Boss - "Where? I dont see it?"

Ranjit - "Of course you dont sir. Its in your underpants!"

Left turn to 'the pearl'.

2007-03-26T14:57:00.000+08:00

the place to be. "Naza dodgy hotel".

walking our appetite to "line clear"?

at last.

arip sippin slipperin superstar chendol.

gettin ready for fuh luh!!

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm......

after a glass or two?

again?

arip with his 'bleeding' desire of touch football.

at the Golden Sands.

mr. bubbles at the feringghi market just cracks u up.

Gurney drive. The opposite attraction.

mesmerizing the beach before headin home.

*wavey* *wavey*.

a stop of fruits and ding dang at sg. perak.

Penang. what can i say, ...... Next trip, ....the cruise......peace ya'all.

p/s : kalau ada pics, pass me.

Getting Cornered.

2007-03-22T02:30:00.000+08:00

an idealic view from down under.

Its now fukin 2:30am in the morning and my hair is turning greyer everyday like the bukit belachan river. my mind is full of doubts. Doubts in life, work, money, pressure,nosejobs,.... I'm seeing faces from the past, friends, neighbours are soaring high, achieving their dreams. Sometimes i see flashes of pictures coming through my mind like when i'm crossing the road and suddenly a car came skidding at me or when i'm going under an underbridge and suddenly everything collapses over me.

Life should be simple. Living by the beach, eating + drinking coconuts, have a pet monkey as a friend and have a mermaid as your wife.

Honestly, wtf is going on with me?

I Pass Gas.

2007-03-07T16:50:00.000+08:00

Support the "I Pass Gas" movement.

I dream...

2007-02-23T13:47:00.000+08:00

what went wrong,

to u n me,

expressions of desire,

tormenting my entire,

soul suggestively wrong,

burning my growing heart on fire,

for what is known

the dream of u n me.

what is bothering me,

time ever clustered,

my mind fragmented,

so ever blind by desire,

was it you that come to change,

or was it me that is blind by ever hate,

moreover so,

its what i dream of u n me.

an island of the bluest sea,

meant just for you n me,

why oh why it keeps this desire,

clinging in my head of pure sweet,

we marry, we be jolly,

somehow somewhere,

it'll all be known,

of just a dream,

of u n me.

Cupid.

2007-02-12T17:47:00.000+08:00

Promises kept.

2007-02-07T22:32:00.000+08:00

it takes just a hint of sound to make you go uuhh - ahh. Music is a feeling expressed by words. I've decided to make this a music blog. i'll keep you guys posted. :)

Where do you turn from here?

2007-02-07T22:25:00.000+08:00

I've been wanting to write about this topic for months now but work beat me to it.

A changed person. What is it? What is the truth of a changed men or women? Is it when you come out of your adulthood or you become a more better person, more mature then you were before? A person who forgets his past maybe? Neither less to say that it is more a peoples perception, more on how you think of it as “changed”.

How about changing a person? Changing peoples perception on things for example. How do you tell them to avoid doing things, so that later on, they won’t regret later in life? Such as? For example,...you know that you’ve suffered losses in your life, you know that how it feels to have a gap, an empty hole in your heart, an emptiest of space and to not repeat things, you do or tell to someone who you care most by showing, say, that it can turn ugly in the future, to avoid all complications, to be happy and just eternally be grateful of life. Experience bad or good. Yes, from my experience, you don’t want to go through that BAD experience again to avoid any hurt again to yourself or to your love ones, that’s why you tell them what’s more important.

My point is, I think changing a person is not possible, regardless of what you’ve experienced in this new modern era. It is unlikely that you can help a person to understand what you think is right or wrong. YES, I know, I do understand the concept of people having their own minds and we are all different, but this is why I relate the topic to how different people experiences are, different persona or scenario. WHY? Look around you. Most people around us knows a lot more, experienced more then you do. They’re not dumb. I’m sure they too know how it feels like to get hurt, that empty space, gap in their hearts. They too know how it feels like to get disappointed, take risks, take a giant leap for example, from working with someone to opening his/her own business, in the end, files for bankruptcy. Life is like an unfinished storybook, you just don’t know the ending.

This is why you can’t change how people think, what they believe, what they’ve already gone through. They too know how to take care of themselves. It is ENTIRELY up to them to decide what’s right or wrong, not for us to tell them what’s BEST for them. This guy once told me that, “if you think that someone is still persistent, just shut the fuck up. Its better that way.”

I’m not trying to conclude my own judgment that what i've thought is right. I know its not IMPOSSIBLE to change a person or rather tell them what’s best and what’s not for doing things. There's always hope in everything. The question is can we change someones belief, the right to live as he or she chooses? and how?

The attempt to build the Tower of Babel had angered God who, in his anger, made each person involved speak a different language which ultimately halted the project and scattered and disconnected the people across the planet.

" if you want to be understood.. listen "

There’s enough war in the world, why make another war?

What does Autumn have to do with me?

2006-12-14T20:22:00.000+08:00

"days go by like mama spanking me buttocks." please dont get any ideas.

Basically, we live in a climate where there's no of that 4 seasons bull crap. It's a 'khatulistiwa' of heaven, where's theres no volcanoes or earthquakes going on around here ( Thank god ). The "Autumn" is best describe as a Melancholy, also the time where what we call in melayu, "Berbuah". This season best describes the inner feelings in me, a parody, the cultured, and the times where bad turns to happier days. karma, whatever u may call it. the "Autumn" is the season i want to experience.

Wonderful Asia. Eh, Air Asia?

2006-12-12T16:13:00.000+08:00

" Air Asia, you make me smile like willy free willy. "

Pictures are snapshots of every single detail your eye catches. A Medium most of us uses, but seldom realises the importance. Could be from someones eyes, your aunt, your grandma, your friends or even your lil kitty piggies. This pictures were taken from my baby's first trip airborne to Bali, Indonesia. :)

Right now, I could use a holiday outside Malaysia. "JOM AR! Kao Meng ah!"

" sayap-sayap yang patah. oh oh."

Welcome Back

2006-12-10T03:59:00.000+08:00

Daddy must be thinking, "wtf is this guy doing taking
a picture of my sons naked butt!"

Firstly, I would like to say, "Gua Selambe beb!". This pictures we're taken during our Holiday trip to Port Dickson with the lando's ( Aprilski, Shenster, Dikidis, Danielkraneski, RineeBoo, Black & our friendly tourguide Nadia ). A Dodgy place to stay didn't stoped us to have a really great time and had LOADS of food including "Crush Chicken". PD doesnt look like the moderate ideal place to go for a holiday but hey, accomodation was sorted thanks to Dikidiss football intellect.

colours & hue at dawn of a blissful day.